Thursday, November 02, 2006

Nerves

wow... Last time I came back to Edinburgh I was actually excited and looking forward to going 'home' to Cairo.
This time I am scared. I want so much to get the whole work situation sorted out- so i can truly live my dream out there and perform... and the last 7 months have been so tough, dealing with the, well, with the people really. Not knowing who to speak to about work, how to speak to them, how much to hassle them and how little to trust them etc etc. That and just getting to speak to the right people in the first place.
Within my last week out there 2 Egyptian men told me, seperately, that I would never perform in Cairo because I looked too honest and good- ie that i was not the sort of girl to do ANYTHING to get the job ( and no , it wasn't a line!) . I can't believe that it does come down to just that, or maybe I am being too naive and wishful. Its a hard business- and i guess there are many aspects to getting to the top......... but if everything were just to go on merit alone, i know my dancing is good enough and that i have what it takes........... so we shall see over the next couple of months how it goes. Fingers crossed. Wish me luck...

4 comments:

karen cameron said...

lorna
of course your dancing is good enough and you definitely have what it takes to make it in Cairo but hey - their loss is our gain and as much as I wish you luck and hope your dream comes true I would also love to see you back here teaching - Karen,Dundee

Lorna (aka BellyLorna!) said...

Bless you Karen- thanks..... Its the support of my friend and students, back home in Scotland, which really helps me get through the hard times in cairo. I miss everyone but know the longer I am in Cairo- the more i will have to teach when i return... so be patient!! (it'll be worth it- I hope!)

Nick said...

You shouldn't need it, but we wish you all the luck in the world. Nick

Lorna (aka BellyLorna!) said...

Thanks Guys!!!! still need the luck......... so keep your fingers crossed for me!